That Awkward Moment When You Have to Write Something You're totally Inexperienced In

I don't date.  With the exception of a skeleton and this one brief stupor in judgment in the first grade, I have never had a boyfriend.  It is a standard of Mormonisnm that I keep, and therefore it has been a really great blessing in my life. 

But when I have to write a part where two of my characters kiss, I struggle a little.  I've never kissed someone!  How on earth am I supposed to talk about something that I know absolutely nothing about?  Yeah, normally, I could use imagination without a problem, but it's not like I fantasize about what it's like to do... that.  With other stuff, like dates, I can! But it just feels dirty when it comes to the meeting of lips.  And, so, what must I do? 

Well, either look it up, or ask my mom.  I'm not too happy about either choice. 

I did actually look it up, but most of the articles were meant for the men, and they were very adamant on being polite and giving signs of warning.  Yeah... this is supposed to be a complete surprise for my character.  She's, like, interrupted by the dude who grabs her face and kisses her.  Heck, I was surprised.  I hadn't been planning on him doing that until way later!  And I hadn't pictured it to be shocking, I had expected her to slowly approach him, and very hesitantly put her arms around his neck, and then kiss him.  But Oliver had different plans, apparently.  It was just one of those moments where you really don't have any control over what the people you create do. 

So, I ended up instead researching how to write a kiss, but that didn't help either.  It got into Frenching and gross stuff like that.  And it didn't tell me if it was lips on lips, or lip over top lip, with the other on the bottom, or... I don't know! 

Of course, now would be the time that I would ask my dear mother, but how do you approach that?  Like, "Hey, Mom, I don't know what it's like to be grabbed in a moment of passion and kissed.  Can you explain?"  Can you say awkward?!  I have enough weird conversations with her; I don't want to add to the list.

And, yes.  Right now, I am avoiding writing out that part and getting into details by doing this instead.  Normally, I'm calm when I do these, but this time it's a no.  I'm.  Freaking.  Out. 

Another thing, I have to read this to my nine year old sisters. We've made a thing out of it, and I need to keep it extremely PG-rated.  I don't want to write anything dirty, anyways, but I also need to put in detail.  Where is the line?  I don't know where it is!  And this isn't really the thing that your English teacher would teach you. 

Okay, I'm feeling a little better after writing this and ranting.  It clears the air with myself.  I'm just going to ask my mom. 

Bye!